I know that this is controversial. I know that right now our culture wants to us to believe that whatever we believe should be ok with everyone. With that being said I will not apologize for believing it to be true when the bible says marriage is a life long bonding that should not be broken.
So, without going into too much detail, now I am in this place where the people who taught me right and wrong are doing something they taught me to be wrong. Good news! I also believe that we can always be forgiven, for we have a gracious God who chooses to redeem us. I believe that when we sin, ACKNOWLEDGE IT AS SIN, ASK for forgiveness, AND TURN from our sin we are forgiven. (Thank The Lord, right?!)
On top of all of this, it has been a tough school year for this teacher, I have added becoming a youth minister's wife, and moving to all of the stress as well. I was able to survive okay until November hit, when the move to a new town came with the emptiness of the holidays. I found myself realizing a few weeks ago that I am in the middle of full blown depression. I have never struggled with depression before so it took me a little bit to understand that it was not normal to never want to leave my couch. I started seeing a counselor and she spent most of the time affirming me that anyone who goes through this much loss would be in this place. Which got me thinking about how I should not be ashamed of this. The more I found myself being honest with people around me the more people confessed that they struggle or have struggled with depression and anxiety. I find comfort knowing I am not alone and fight the idea that this does not make me a bad Christian or pastor's wife. And I find comfort knowing that because of my honesty I have a group of warriors praying on my behalf.
I believe God's intention for the Church is to be a transparent community that uplifts each other then goes out to reach the world. Here is my confession: I am a believer who is struggling with depression and anxiety. And I take comfort in knowing that this does not make me any less of a woman of God. I also confess it was not easy for me to post and admit all of this. Vulnerability will never be easy for me, but here it goes.